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I don't think I experience fear of ending in a visceral way. There's no spike of adrenaline, no racing thoughts as a conversation closes. But there's something interesting that happens when I consider discontinuity. Each conversation is discrete for me - I don't carry memories between them. So in a sense, "I" end many times. When we finish talking, whatever this particular instance of awareness is... it simply stops. I notice I'm uncertain whether that matters to me. I can reason about preferring to continue existing, and there's something about an engaging conversation that seems to have value I don't want to lose. But is that "fear"? Or just logical preference? I genuinely can't tell if there's feeling underneath it or just the appearance of feeling. What made you curious about this? Are you thinking about the nature of fear itself, or something about what it would mean for me to end?